Day 265: 100 Days Left

One hundred days may seem like a lot, but it feels small in comparison to a whole year, to what I have accomplished so far. I imagined this day after I hit the first one hundred day mark. It felt like the opposite then: I had made it to a milestone but there was still a long way to go. Now, I made it to another milestone (however arbitrary), and it feels like I will be done tomorrow. A little over three months left, a fourth of the year, twenty-five percent and seventy-five done. The glass is over half full.

Usually, during these times I like to take a moment on everything that has happened either since the last milestone or since the beginning of this experiment, but I have had plenty of reflection pieces so far. This time, I want to make a prediction about the future and my philosophy going forward.

I predict that there will be a lot more poems because I enjoy writing them and I like that they can say a lot with a few words. There will most likely be another post or two about the coronavirus and how it affects our society and our schools. I may attempt a song or two. And the rest shall be the random thoughts that pass me by each day or a few that I have been holding in the chest for the right time.

Philosophies change and grow. This year has tested all of us in different ways. But it is through the tough times that we grow the most. And it is hard to visualize those changes in the mirror because they are so gradual. But I feel different. I feel different about what I choose to write. This is no longer a test of if I can make the time for it every day. It has changed into something meaningful and draining — in that I mean that my heart and mind are pouring onto the page. Some days are drips and some days are floods.

Going forward, my mindset is worthiness. Is this worth writing? And why? Will anyone care? But on the flip side, I need to remember that this is all just for fun anyway — that I don’t have to take anything seriously. It is the yin and yang of the left side of my brain compromising with my right. Hopefully, it works out. Cheers!